Miss Hannigan

Now that I've washed (most) of the city off of me in my scalding shower in my apartment that just won't stay clean, I think I can answer these questions. but first, let me talk about how dirty everything is.

everything is dirty. i feel like there's dirt like flagstone tiles caked onto everything that surrounds me. this includes the floors, my eyelids and arms. maybe this makes you think that I'm dirty because i never wash it off, but I do. i just want to scrub scrub scrub, all the time. i feel more dirty here than i did when i was living in new york, coming home from flip-flopped days with black feet with gum on the bottom.

so, the questions. the questions have been about why I don't share writings on the e.a.t. website and that I should and why don't I...
well, I haven't because I haven't felt very inspired to. nor to write music or to be a positive thinker or to go to school (which I skipped today). I've mostly been inspired to go to Alice's to use rehearsal's as a disguise to eat the cake in her fridge let over from Alanna's b-day party.

alice and I spit something out called DARKNESS DESCENDS from a casio improv session a few weeks ago, and that's just how I feel. it has ghost noises, witch cackles and haloween like minor chords pulling it up and down the scale. sometimes people are surprised by how dark our music gets but, they don't realize that "darkness descends on a mountain where wild wolves are trapped in little girls' clothing"

the other reason I haven't written is simply b/c I've wondered "who cares about what my fingers have to say about my mind?" but, then I reminded myself that i love reading the thoughts of my friends and that people don't have to read if they don't want to.

so, now that that's over with, I will become a regular in this home of buttons and screens. and next time i will talk about band stuff and attempt to be more conventional and less darkness descends. wishing you a good night, -kim talon